Parables & Paragraph's : They tell me Not 2 Speak that Way

What Have I been Doing???

2011-09-27T09:11:00.001-07:00

Twitter Crush

2010-12-07T14:08:00.000-08:00

Sizzle your so Unpredictable, do you think love exist on the net? As a 2010 diva I'm just so virally unpredictable.. I can't manage my emotions so I tweet them away.. I fall in love with Avatar pic's (i'm unrealistic sometimes) but not just any.. There is like a certain Savvy personality that pops out of your twit feeds... YOu post music & youtubes & pictures & i'm just head over heels.. Would I feel the same way if I met you in REaL LIFE? Maybe.. I'm a pisces so I'm kinda flip flopESQ but as I get older I try to be more open minded.. I just wanna know am I kinda weird for falling this way? They say be more vocal but on the net people can be poser's so you mite think I'm a weird (i'm a good weirdo) ....I don't know.. I don't wanna twitSTOCK you cause that's just creepy... My time is open (I'm sure my followers can tell) but if I could iChat or Skype with you, my digital day would be fulfilled.. Your dreds (which I love men w/ dreds) are so dam cute & I can't resist wanting to pull them.. Ok.. that's enough.. no more thoughts of wanting to rub organic honey peanut butter all over you or rolling you up in a tortilla.. I'll go back to normal life searching for a job that will soon come fourth and living in my fantasy world that I live in alot in AnyOrder. - Sizzle

#DearDeer

2010-11-12T00:28:00.000-08:00

As I watch you prance your soft hoved spotty galloping ass across the Interstate it makes me flashback. Flashback to the time your distant cousin spiraled sideways against my car right before I saw your brother chill'n/running through a open field of deforestation. All these thoughts make me wonder if your worth a bong rip or should holding back in your presence be more accepting? I know you were here first but can I make you into a nice headband or even the most tasty of tasty STEW? I will let you dwindle on all of the above but remember... Life goes in AnyOrder so run a lil faster & stay away from headlights - Diva

#HipHOpShit

2010-10-10T20:02:00.000-07:00

This weekend I attended #A3C which is a annual Hip Hop music festival in Atlanta.. It has been going on since 2005 and this was my 2nd year in attendance except this year I volunteered since my budget won't allow me to afford such luxury's. I enjoyed volunteering.. I met some interesting Artist & popular people we all know and saw some AMAZING LeGENDS at WORK! I was so thrilled to see Jean Grea perform.. she is so DOPE! I would go through the list but I'll let my pictures do the talking...

HoLd On!

2010-09-26T07:33:00.001-07:00

I have just been over come with thoughts that I usually feel/over come on a monthly or what not basis... YOu need to HoLd ON! Like.. Why when you try to take it slow & feel a guy out it's a 1 day process that ends up with a night time lullaby? Back UP! actually.. HOL' UP! ..Why you gotta go in that direction.. Oh! and by the way.. I'm sober and try to feel a person out so I don't feel bad about going off on them cause I know them.. I have the POWER to back things up & say.. Hold on now.. but why does it have to come to that point.. It's kinda the same way with friends too.. Ya'll are buddy buddy for a milli years, always together even when apart but then when you get ultra close again.. THINGS CHANGE.. WTF.. It's like.. am I being the AssBag in this situation?.. NO, I'm not! I am being completely giving & that's why I am getting the shaft.. I've been Knifing it & you can tell.. Sometimes you do have to stop from daily life and just Hold On to what you got and progress from there. You don't always or in anyorder need to be in a relationship.. Like my friend Paige said "I'm trying to work on Me, i'm number 1". Great words from a wise diva and I take those words and translate them.. When you come on really strong too fast or just come on really strong it makes the other person want to pull back.. or at least me.. I'm a Pisces (it's hard for me to give a straight answer ) and truly believe everything I read about my Horoscope.. Life's a Boat ride that hasn't even left the dock.

Wylin Cause I'm Young

2010-09-17T16:30:00.000-07:00

Kid Cudi is on the cover of Complex Magazine this month and he discusses in his article his drug abuse and takes jab's at WALE!!! Man! I got "OH SO" emotional today when I discovered all this information out earlier today on twitter.. I got into some heated discussions and really was just hurt that wale and kid cudi are GOIN' IN on this level... Last month when I attended the Wale concert in Atlanta he took a small jab at Cudi with a 1 lined comment... I was surprised but was kinda like... he didn't mean it like that.. Ummmmmmmm... yeah... Check the article out ya'll!!! http://www.complex.com/blogs/2010/09/17/kid-cudi-covers-complexs-octnov-2010-issue/

Wale/J.Cole Show #Atl

2010-08-29T19:32:00.000-07:00

This was the best show I have seen PERIOD!!! Since I have lived in atlanta I have been to some great show's but Wale set it OFF!! His band UCB sounded amazing.. Everything was just so sound infused.. it was just beautifully amazing.. Wale's artist that he has been putting on a pedal-stole Fat Trel and Black Cobain showed what was up.. I've listened to them before but excited for there soon to be released mixtapes.. #boardofAdminstration .. but the made me feel like I didn't want to leave because I was going 2 be missing out..LoL.. I got my Attention Deficit CD signed... I'm so thankful & ecstatic.. J. Cole was zexy as hell & put on a great show..Yo Gotti popped up sang 5 star chic.. Cyhi da princ opened the show up .. pastor troy was chill'n in the audience w/ his wrestling belt .. Fat Trel & Black Cobain both did there thizzle on stage..LiL duval was doin his lil jigg on the side of the stage.. All together an Amazing show..

JetLife

2010-08-10T10:39:00.000-07:00

I went to a mobile phone free event t #KinATL & Jay Electronica, Big Boi, & Yelawolf performed w/9th wonder on the turntables..It was amazing & so was my drunken Rage-R's en-doused fall to Big Boi's classic "You Can Find Me in the A" ... That was a amazing event & I got cool Stuff. My highlight of the summer was going to Currensy's, "PiLot Talk" release party in Atl...Currensy, Nesby Phips, Big Krit & Haziq held it down. It was Hot and Amazing and.. and I got my Pilot Talk CD signed by Spitta himself.. After waiting and calling around to different disc shops for 3 weeks after it was released due to me not being able to find it.. I was a Happy Camper :0)

Were ALL in this ToGetHer

2010-08-10T10:21:00.000-07:00

So I've been a little absent but ever so ALIVE!!! I wanted to grace my face across my lovely blog with the sprinkling presence of my different friends. I live my life month to month because things change all the time. When your steady & stable that's the time to make major life changes ( like Getting married is the only choice ) until then.. I'm biPoLar, like eating a cold treat on your sensitive teeth type of frenzy way .. 1 seasonal job to the next adventure after random adventure... Enjoy!

EBT

2010-04-16T08:59:00.000-07:00

Sitting and waiting, paperwork in hand. Number called, approach gas station approved bullet proof glass slot window handover paperwork.. Process Process Process.. Go to another room... Yellow Room… The madness begins… Wait Wait Wait... Room full of Blacks, Blacks and the occasional White, Asian, Indian and oh So Ghetto BLACKS that don't know anything different… Kids runn'n wild … Mamma on the phone talk'n, shirt to small raisin so that you can see that classy Tramp Stamp, Dunks & Jordan's every where… Tattoo's all over the place, dirty miss matched kids, loud music blares from the phone as a child dances to "the Stanky Leg".. Mamma look like we at the club letting the kids get even wilder in a Public as Public gets location... Why you talk'n so Loud?? Country accents but we deep in the city … Oh! I forgot I'm in the South not the Midwest… Try'n to focus on these state approved funds that a college degree can't provide, but keep wait'n cause one day I can just give back and not have to wait in such a Public Place... Name called, is the wait OVER??… NopE! Schedule another appointment… when can I get that plastic?? I'm Hungry??...

To Be Continued...

Nature Bum

2010-04-07T22:01:00.000-07:00

I love that I have friends that do different things so I can experience something different and out the box. My life goes in Anyorder and life might not be grand but sometimes you do have to live on the edge to know how your survival instincts will work. I know my life hasn't been stable lately, but I've been working to enBetter myself. I always have to remind my "Optimistic" "Pisces Ass" that things don't come fast even if you have been waiting 3 Years!! Do better then the day before!! But remember that you have to work for what you want in life.. It isn't just going to FaLL in your Lap.. Being in nature makes you realize that mother nature is everywhere in different forms. Don't disrespect her cause Karma is a BiTcH!!! I love nature and all the calm qualities it presents.. Thank you to Pagiel & Haley & Jessica for letting me come Surfing & Camping during you Spring Break Oh10! .. Good Times.. Good Friends.. Amazing Memories .. Chelsea .. you are a diva.. Thank You Halley for being a Fab diva & friend.. CAmping in the North Georgia Mountains is so Much fun even if I pass out.. (ugh..Yeah) I love all the random trips that happen and all the wonderful friends I make.. Making connections is import in life and remember.. They can happen anyWhere..in AnyOrdEr.

Pisces

2010-03-14T12:47:00.000-07:00

Happy Belated Birthday to mySELF !!! I have been meeting/finding out more people are Pisces!! Which I think is AwesOme!! I'm reading some extra facts and would like to share them about my Sign :: The Sanskrit name of Pisces in Hindu astrology is Mīna (Pretty) Zodiac Quality Mutable (Mutate MuthaF'ka)
Pisceans possess a gentle, patient, malleable nature. They have many generous qualities and are friendly, good natured, kind and compassionate, sensitive to the feelings of those around them, and respond with the utmost sympathy and tact to any suffering they encounter. They are deservedly popular with all kinds of people, partly because their easygoing, affectionate, submissive natures offer no threat or challenge to stronger and more exuberant characters. They accept the people around them and the circumstances in which they find themselves rather than trying to adapt them to suit themselves, and they patiently wait for problems to sort themselves out rather than take the initiative in solving them. They are more readily concerned with the problems of others than with their own.

JETS

2010-03-14T09:10:00.000-07:00

Curren$y ft. Nesby Phips: Prioritize (Beeper Bill) from Creative Control on Vimeo.

RouuuuuLuTtE

2010-02-12T17:04:00.001-08:00

If you don't know about it... I'M TELLING YOU!!! http://chatroulette.com/ <--this shit is BANANAS!!! if you have a web cam.. your day's and nights have just got a little bit more interesting.. Hey, you can still use it even if you don't but people pass you up faster.. People are nosey and when you can see into someone else's world... You have Been ENLIGHTENED.. Be BANANAS.. But warning.. there is alotta Penile action & you know you run into your occasional Racist if you're a Beautiful Black Diva Like Me.. AnyOrder it's #2010 you can let it get to you or you can play with it like ME! ... LOve IT!!!

Prescription

2010-02-11T13:42:00.000-08:00

I feel like people write their own destiny's in their head but don't believe it until life goes in that order, which mite not be a good order. We can never predict the future we can only live life the way we want to live. Some people Push & Struggle harder then other's to get that Trophy, some are just handed the trophy because they have it like that, and some just kill & put you down to get their own PErSONAL Trophy. Are destiny is written before we are born and some humans are bright enough to take the path of non-selfishness & giving to the point were the SunShines on them in good or bad situations. No one ever said life was going to be easy, but living life with your heart open is the prescription that keeps most afloat in bad & good times. I believe some people don't realize how good their life is but decide to put there angry energy all on one thing. #ThatThing could be struggling but show's emotion in a totally different way, which in turn is interpreted by other's as being nonchalant & selfish when in turn person number 1 is selfish. All the therapy in the world and consulting can't turn your heart around, you have to have a self revelation that change's your mind forever and it will happen at the most least likely second of your life. Life is never guaranteed and we should love who Love & Love everyone on top of that. Fighting only makes the sorrow hurt. What if your loved one dies right after an argument? You never got to say sorry.. But in reality fighting is healthy but being selfish is not. When you let your guilt get to you, you die inside. But there is always brighter days ahead... Everyone goes through dark times and the thought of you dyeing due to your of selfishness should never cross your mind. You should want to change and tell your story to other's so that it could help someone else who is battling these types of ideation. Life is Life, keep Faith. You are here right now but you could be gone tomorrow. We are all here to serve a purpose, so Love one another not hate.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rP5oyrq1SNA

♥CrUsH♥

2010-02-09T22:16:00.000-08:00

I love MeN/Males/Guys/whatever you want to call them, I just never have a boyfriend. I guess from my growing up days I was never the "Cute Girl" & got rejected a couple of times (I asked this dude I liked to go to my prom & he told me a lame excuse) and I just have kinda written off being with anyone. Yeah, I have sampled a little bit while in college but when I thought it was true it wasn't. It just turned out to be a cheat'n dude who put me second and then my best friend turned lover then turned back to friend. That sucked a lot and took a lot of me to turn the situation all the way back around cause I had wrote him off for a minute.. But why stay mad.. I'm a Happy Go Lucky Diva.. Then there's that one guy who just spit's so much game in your ear to get you to be that one night stand.. You fall for it and think there is something but in reality he has a life on the other side of the hotel door.. BURRR!!! and don't you go be on your "Betty Shit" & bake him some birthday goodies and then send them to him through the mail & he drops you after that.. *Chuckle* Life is full of whatever.. I just don't dwell on it that hard, let it flow.. be Happy.. Have a Dam CRUSH!!!.. If it can really be taken there, don't force it, it could be #ThatThing... But for now I have a Crush.. I haven't had one in a while but I have one now & he is just so dam cute & has a accent **BLusH** I love foreigners & dude's with accents <--That's Zexy as HELL!!! But it's just a crush.. I will ask you if you want to come over for dinner.. I love cooking for other people. When the time is right I'll fall again but until then I have a CRUSH & I'm watch'n you... I don't celebrate V-Day but I will have a CRUSH AnyDay in AnyOrder :OP

SMKA experience 808 vol.2 Mixtape Release Party

2010-01-26T14:48:00.000-08:00

I had so much fun at the SMKA vol.2 mixtape release party at Star Bar.. It was popington! so many Acts & so Much ENERGY! I was front in center & all over the place.. I think pictures speak a thousand words so ya'll take a Peep! POW!

Wooden Pearrrr

2010-01-15T16:27:00.000-08:00

..So I'm sitting in McDonalds on Peachtree Industrial blvd..I've been here for 2 1/2 hours because I didn't have a ride from dropping off the Penske Truck from my tiresome move to my new apartment... I have seen alot of randomness.. But I have been sitting here faithfully netting it up.. I'm not going to lie, I am addicted to the internet and everything associated to it but, I don't have internet on my phone (don't laugh, I know it's 2010). I love the internet and everything associated with it.. But today was my last day living with my friend who subsequently isn't talking to me for real. I hope are friendship heals and I will give her the distance. But I am now in a committed 6 month relationship with a new apartment by myself (COME VISIT ME). It was also a pain to move all the junk I have (I love thrift shops). So in turn I have a new spot were I am the minority (I live in a predominate Latino area) and think things will be interesting.. Well till next time... TOODLES ;0)

oh Word

2010-01-06T19:40:00.000-08:00

"see when your a artist your nothing witout supporters..fans is a BAD word its short for fanatic..so i try to find the core folks and speak directly to them and they spread the word cuz the truly enjoy it" -Neako

FormSpring Me

2010-01-02T12:57:00.000-08:00

http://www.formspring.me/SizzleMayfield

Tiger Woods and his Mistresses!

2009-12-14T19:46:00.000-08:00

ManandWife.tv

2009-12-14T19:37:00.000-08:00

For everyone who doesn't know anything about Manandwife.tv then let me inform you.. Man and Wife is a duo : Fatman Scoop and his wife Shanda.. I love watching their blog show & there Mtv show... But If you don't know anything about them you should check out their website www.manandwife.tv or http://www.youtube.com/user/ManandWifeTV ... Shanda has started blogging on the youtube and I am sorry I just discovered that she is.. I love her! She is so motivating and well informed.. She preaches so much knowledge and useful information for the everyday woman and for you relationship "LoveBirds" she helps you out.. check out both sites...

*P.S- shoutout to Scoop cause you keep it real!!

Words of the day

2009-12-10T15:43:00.000-08:00

So I was watching U-stream last nite & the 2 shows I watched were music artist.. I love when they u-stream cause they let out raw emotion 2 us...Amazing.. i know I'm a nerd.. A nerd that ♥'s her Macbook .. But I watched Neako who is in the New Jersey area (never been there) & Lyriciss & his friends ..they were all so cute/I loved there DC accents & the chocolate brotha (LoL..he was cute)...ok the words i picked up last nite

1. Devils Lettuce -DMV
2. tuck'n that - Jersey

Devils Lettuce.. I luv it...

I'm so Proud of You!! MuAh

2009-12-08T22:32:00.000-08:00

Have you Bought any of this LaTeLy?

2009-12-08T21:57:00.001-08:00

Stussy x Hello Kitty

2009-11-27T11:36:00.000-08:00

check it out http://www.stussy.jp/feature.asp?coid=462

Hello World

2009-11-21T07:36:00.000-08:00

I've just been kinda of DoLo lately so I wanted 2 say "I Love All of You." Even if it's just one person reading about my life.. I love you so MUCH!!!.. MUAH.. Trying to figure out my place in life like a normal 25 year old... Why are people always so happy to be 25.. I will be 26 in February and 25 has been happy times but shitty times at the same time (thats a mouthful). I just want so much but I'm having a hard time focusing on trying to get on my feet.. How do you do it?? My fam gives me Lots of encouragement & criticism & my friends give me alot of constructive criticism & hope... Half the time I don't want to hear it either.. I'm just kinda hard head and learn the hard way.. MURRRRRRRR!!! Sometimes I know but I don't know (WhatchatalknboutSHAWTY) Encouragement is always needed.. But personal determination is a MUST... I'm going 2 keep smiling & keep that mouse in my brain chase'n the cheese :0)

#igotacrushon Cudders

2009-10-21T20:43:00.000-07:00

A3C Music Festival

2009-10-04T20:38:00.000-07:00

Well if you can tell I haven't Scissored you guys lately, so I thought I would (in the words of Currensy) let the plane out the hanger and release some Sizzle'n thoughts from my mellow mind. I like to blog when I have the flow, I don't like to force a blog because when I have the flow it's just more heartfelt maybe thats why I'm not the most consistent blogger.. But I attended a 3 day music festival in Atlanta this weekend & it was amazing & powerful. It made me happy to live in AtL & experience great music. It was 3 days of Hip-Hop Bliss w/ artist from the West-South-MidWest-East- & it was just amazing mind indulging. It made me appreciate the fine art of Music. I mite just be talking about one genre but in Reality I have experienced the music scene so hard since I came down here in January so I am talking about hip-hop, rap, soul, alternative, pop & rock. These artist put their soul into there work and it show's. I love when a artist just feels the flow & is all over the place and put a 100% into there show. I noticed that I didn't appreciate 1 artist for real out of all the 3-days. The dude started off with "Girls if you have fire pu**y say MEOW" I was so turned off.. I don't care when male artist talk about F'kn or Pu**y but the way he operated it I was totally turned off by his whole 8 minute set. His music was good but he was just way to cocky & it showed... ugh.. Anyway.. I loved Currensy's performance! I was so into it HARD.. move'n, bobbin my head.. sing'n.. Currensy pointed to me @ 1 point during his song when the lyrics were "that fine dime right there". (LoL @ me) I felt his movement & love for his struggle/game.. Chip tha Ripper was amazing.. Loved Mike Baker the Bike Maker.. I started listening to his music after I randomly heard of him on twit & I started following him & listening to his music & I loved it.. It's a different Bay Area movement but it's so mind blowing & makes you grove (i sound old). I thought it was rude that people left out during his show then came back after his set.. Except change just like Obama.. I thought all the performers had their own *Swag* (sorry the word works) that's what makes a artist great & also being humble & wanting to reach out to everyone after a show.. That's Love & Dedication & I F'Ks with that.. I chatted with Currensy and Mike Baker the Bike maker and enjoyed ever second of it.. they both reached out to me and said they saw really out there enjoying the show and were thankful (in Spitta's side he was sorry for messing up..I loved it..it was Epic).. they were both totally appreciative and threw me love for feeling there movement. I don't know these people but I feel like I do & especially when they reach out even more or make a effort to chat even if you don't have anytime.... All the male's I listen to are my BF's.. I just don't know them, I live through there voices (cudders ;))..They always have a piece of 'Dubs' heart

Man on the Moon

2009-09-01T19:36:00.000-07:00

I was so thrilled & honored to go to :The Great Hang Over Tour: it consisted of PacDav, BobbyRay aka BoB, Kid Cudi & Asher Roth... I so went to see Cudders (( Thrilling & fab Show)) & his light show for real but really enjoyed everyone who performed.. I wish 88-Keys would have been on that leg of the journey.. But I loved every minute.. from BoB & Asher Roth both jumping into the crowd (mind u the clearance from stage 2 crowd was a lil jump)...i L-ved every second of Cudders set.. the Light show was amazing.. ahhh... i enjoyed myself & i was in the front.. He came right in front of me light weight.. if that man in the wheelchair wouldn't have been there.. ughhh... whatever.. i was snapping pictures the whole time while chic's were goin Bananas try'n 2 grab him.. Listen I enjoyed myself.. I went SoloDolo & I got to see Mr.SoloDolo can't wait till i see him again... I still haven't seen Wale yet but soon..SoOn..

Here is a playlist of the concerts/shows i went to this place couple of months::

Devin the Dude
Vibe Soul Session (Young LA, TiearraMarie,JudyDexter, Rudy, Slim)
GreatHangOverTour (Asher,BoB,Cudi,PacDiv)
Big Sean
SneakerPimp's Atlanta (local Atl talent, Big Boi, GLC, Clark Kent)
Wiz Khalifa

*I enjoyed all of them but seeing Cudi was like the best treat out of all of them :0)

FunDay around AtLanta

2009-09-01T17:01:00.000-07:00

Well In Honor of Tuesday Funday I thought i would post some pic's of some of the random Adventures I have embarked on in the last week... Me and my friend Haley have doved Tuesday the offical Funday of the week... ((SundayFunday??)) Every1 needs to relax during the week even if Humpday hasn't hit yet...Saturday I went to the Red Bull Soap Box Race & it was CRAZY... Crashes get the best points.. You never know what the city you live in offer's you until you get out & explore... Peace Love & Tranquility

DubMania

2009-08-23T06:47:00.000-07:00

So in HOnor of HowFly Mania I'm doin DubMania... I want 2 do a Ustream and have been thinking about this for a while but I want to have viewers and not 0-1 viewers... so how do I get the viewers??? I don't want 2 just talk into the camera I want to do something fun that I enjoy & possible somebody else will enjoy... So I have been thinking about doing maybe a cooking show?? My friend said she wants 2 be a guest... GRAVY BABY... I think it would be fun.. get Twisted & goHam on Ustream... What do u think? Do you watch Ustreams, Justin.tv or do tinychat?... I love watching Wiz Khalifa, Curren$y, Wale & whoever else pop's up on twitter talkn bout they r ustream'n... it's just another way 2 see into your Life.. i give it 2 thumbs WAY UPPPPP... PoW.. Let me know what u think or what would be funny.. I'm not a Star/or any1.. Just a Regular Diva trying 2 do something different... (((N my Frankie voice))) HOLLLLLLLAAA!!!

Me Luv U Long Time

2009-08-23T06:30:00.000-07:00

Howdy! I was just thinking Randomly like I always do of some words that are just funny but are normal to us ENGLISH speaking Americans... English isn't hard to learn but it is pretty complex because we say/spell/context of a word can be different but sound the same way..( ex. two,to,too) But here R sum words that I have picked up Being a internet sLoRe/ear's open Music Lover Diva/TwitHoneyBunny/everyday Human.. Yeah Buddy, GoHam (SouljaBoy coin'd it),PoW, OkBye, Boom, Soapy (ad n CreativeLoafingAtL), Yaye, AnyOrder, Chalk (throwbk), Coo, FTW, Ftswindle, Becky (my cuz were saying this like a couple yrs ago), OMG, LoL<-- u know those, & hella mo.. i can think but going 2 stop right there!!! Boom.. N that Order.. cause Life goes N anyOrder..

Aug 2nd... "Great HangOver Tour"

2009-07-31T18:11:00.000-07:00

It hasn't happaned yet but i'm uber excited!!! i will take a milli pic's & hopefully get my signature pic. w/ Mr.Cudder's... hopefully!! I also went & saw Wiz Khalifa on July 23rd @ Cenci n Atlanta.. he was off the chain & all his music was even better in person.. the vibes n the Room were Amazing... all I hav 2 say is the Freshman Class is R ready 2 GoOoOo!!!!!

WizKhalifa video... I luv his tat's

2009-06-29T12:41:00.000-07:00

Regular Girl Relapse

2009-06-29T12:09:00.000-07:00

I have had a Relapse... my mind jus has me thinking..I am 25.. am I were I need 2 be @ my age.. I'm not saying all 25 year olds but alot of 25 year olds have there dreams working for them right now.. I'm jus trying not to fall into the Trap of a daily MauiWowie user.. which isn't hard but when your broke alot of the times it doesn't happan.. I don't hav a man which doesn't really bother me cause Dudes Lie & do what they can 2 get you N there like swimWear.. But what about that 1 positive person.. R they suppose to turn your persepective around... I mean all these thoughts like hit me @ once.. 5 minutes ago & i had to Blog it out.. I'm 25 and not were I want to be but comfortable but trying to break that habit.. being comfortable only hurts me.. i get talks from my parents alot about Moving up N the world.. I'm trying MA!! But that big break isn't coming fast enough but I have hope & determantion just like these other 25 year olds that R doing it Real Nice right now.. Now Dudes..don't understand them.. they R emotional & wanna blog there emotions out on twitter (WHY)... I have taken 2 my personal space to ask this question which may never get answered... But I feel like the guys I meet and wanna have googlie eye's 4 figure it out & just wanna tell me B.S & beat.. yeah.. it's cool til i get all involved & find out down the line that they have sum1 else..Bummer.. which is why guys lie 2 me.. Be truthful.. I don't like HOLLA'RN @ guys cause I don't like rejection which is kinda like a fable.. Oh your so beautiful.. yadayadayada..ok but I don't have any1 who tells me that besides the random whoever... I have a dream of the type of WEIRDO that would make me happy but sumtimes my faith is just doom'd dreams that I could only imagine..I get lil messages about I wanna be with you from 17/18 year olds and above 30 dudes... the above 30 is cool but i'm a lil optimistic on older guys like 4 real.. why IDK... it iz what it iz... i can't get a dude my age... I dont know.. my questions will go unanswered & my Love 4 music just get's stronger cause it gets me through non-emotional thoughts of day 2 day ponder... yeah.. Toodles.. Sizzle

in Memory of a Legend: Michael Jackson 1958-2009

2009-06-25T20:34:00.000-07:00

Moment of Silence... a Pop King is Gone.. his memory has been here even when he was alive and it is even stronger now that he has left this planet... He is the original MOON MAN.. R.I.P Michael Jackson!!

Definition of a Diva..

2009-06-18T23:21:00.000-07:00

-prima donna: a distinguished female

-A diva is a woman who is extremely talented

-Divas are strong, independent, pro-active women who are listened to when they speak, loved for their fiery spirits and respected

-a diva is a female version of a hustler

Regular Girl

2009-06-18T21:23:00.000-07:00

I'm Back Like Cooked Crack!!! LoL... ok so as usual I have been doing my weekly observation of Live-Streams & my favorite by far is Wiz Khalifa... He loves his fans & be on his stream Chief'n & keep'n it 100 HUNNID!!! Luv's it... but as he streams & chats.. chic's b say'n i luv u & all that yadddah.. and the covo of what type of girls do u like started.. 1st he is like Money B4 Bitches... which I personally think this is so true.. Get yours n life before your ready 2 start being committed till then GET IT HOW U LIVE! anyOrder.. but anyway he was like "i like REgular Girls" & n a interview Kid Cudi did he said he likes "Plain Janes"... Yo so what makes these types of diva's.. is this particular chic like a book worm or addicted 2 the NET (oops did i giv myself away?) or is this the type of Diva that get's her own.. Has a job & hold'n it down.. not 2 overly all over u or sum1 who like's 2 hit the Maui Wowie?... I personally dnt think I am a Regular Plain Jane.. I'm a Diva/Dub/Sizzle/ I go n AnyOrder... every REgularPlainJane has their own TiCk & that's what makes them special... I want 2 do a live-stream but I don't think the time is right.. Timing is everything... for now I will stick 2 my occasional blogging, job searching, saving people's life's @ the public facility i work @ keep'n 2 myself.. newly founded Hip-Hop head Diva Self... N that ORder..

Luv

Dub Diva

YUPPPPPPPPPP

I HeaRt

2009-06-11T20:12:00.000-07:00

My Following Twitter Happiness..

1) imcudi
-MInds so deep..luvs it..would love to have a convo w/ him

2) realwizkhalifa
- his laugh alone would have me cooking him Whatever he likes../ luvs his tat's..i wanna see all of them..

That's all..

oh and Wale... I think he zexy.. chalk every1 else... i think all 3 of the above & me need 2 have a party... we can have fun and Play TABOO...LoL...cheese!!!

YUPPerS

2009-06-11T20:03:00.000-07:00

I have been thinking lately of taking a couple vacations... So REady.. but have no $$ for real... trying to stack real high so I can have fun... My mom is going 2 London & Paris and I am so JELLLY!!! I wanna go... So i am thinking' bout my next destination... I want to see Kid Cudi in concert and I have 2 opportunities... I am so excited..That is my stress relief..it kinda makes me work harder thinking about it..I can be a lonely traveler going places by myself... which is cool cause I don't like waiting around for others all the time... So I am going 2 dedicated this Post 2 all the Lonely Loners out there... U can do Ish by yourself & accomplish things N your life... I haven't made it there yet but you have to start some where...

Pause

2009-06-04T20:17:00.000-07:00

Man sometimes you just have 2 stop.. so u Pause.. i jus called N2 the Monicadanger show and gotta lil radio air time but i also figured out why I will never be able to be in radio cause i talk 2 long.. Pause.. Yeah I also need 2 chill & hav better communication...& not waste taxpayer's money & dont be rude(dumb things i hear believe if u knew me)... I am always nice.. u know I am a silent thinker & I think BiG.. But I wanted 2 dedicated this Pause worthy structure @ work that i call the devil structure... even if my hair isn't done i dnt wanna stand under it w/ the bucket dumping water ever 45 secs... ugh... but open your mind and Come N2 my world.. LoL..nice

"take you on a natural high Good Girls never give it up on the 1st night.."
-Wale

My Wanna be Husband's Video..

2009-06-04T16:17:00.000-07:00

My LIfeStyle.. I luv Hello Kitty..

2009-06-02T23:07:00.000-07:00

puzzle I bought that I put 2gether while i was off that Maui Wowie.. LoL ..enjoy

My Current Favorite Music Rotation

2009-06-02T22:31:00.000-07:00

So I am becoming a Music head ever since I got my MacBook.. I went to the Sneaker Pimps Show in Atlanta last month.. (it was Amazing) & I saw ClarkKent using his Mac & got so inspired (i was thinking that i should become a dj..i hav 1 piece of equip.lol) .. i luv this computer but anyway Music.. I find new Mixtapes 2 download all the time & have discovered alot of new artist that aren't new via-TWITTER (dnt sleep on twizzler its that deal).. & also luv me sum Itunes.. music keeps me SANE..4 Real.. so here is my list.. i will update soon cause my list Always coTinues..

1. Kid Cudi : Luv me sum Cudder.. Daps & Pound.. I can write a post on him alone... I will

2. Wale : the Song Chill'n is the ISh! can't wait 4 his CD 2 drop.. 100 mile & Runn'n = Genius! Fav Jo'n (DC voice) Please Listen, Good Girls, Bmore club Slam, Smilin (remix), W.A.L.E.D.A.N.C.E .. all of the above.. i can let both the Cd's jus roll..

3. The Cool Kids = like Old School New School Flare.. I'm feel'n the Don Cannon induced Mixtape Gone Fishing

4. M.I.A : She is so RAdical & inspirational... Both her CD's pump me up.. Arular & Kala

5. Kanye : if u didn't feel 808's & heartbreak..slap yo self.. Lvs & Autotune 2 is a amazing Mixtape.. kanye is genius & makes the best Music Every all his CD's R banger's.. Shout out 2 Cudi cause he has that same influence I feel

6. Drake : Best I ever Had.. his game is so Sick... sings & raps what more can u ask 4

7. The-Dream : LoveHate & Love vs Money are 2 incredible cd's that can't b touched.. his lyrics are so personal & touching

8. Chrisette Michelle : Soulful sister.. LOve Epiphany.. i hav a video 2 it..i mite post it..tina will b pissed

9. 88-Keys : the Death of Adam is so different I luv it so MUCH.. i can't wait 2 see him N concert friday 6/5/09

10. Big Sean : lyric's R deep & flowful.. i luv his voice the words jus roll off his tongue..

My most recent itunes purchase/mixtape downloads:

#Wiz Khalifa: his voice is different I like it..its kinda like punk HipHop is that a Genre? (he is Zexy, luv his laugh, & he has hella tat's and they just make him even zexier!)

#Electrik Red : The-Dreams all girl Group.. still listening but they hav sum cool joints on the CD.. I'm feel'n it.. it's kinda empowering..

* this is all for now.. my rotation changes so I will Keep it up 2 date :0) Siz

My Sky Mite Fall

2009-06-02T21:09:00.000-07:00

So.. if u couldn't tell I like 2 kind of quote my favorite music artist that I listen 2... if u can't tell I got ( yes got) a post for you.. Do I hav 2 use correct Grammer? My mom would say yes but... this is My Blog so it shouldn't matter.. @ least I think.. So I love to twitter and make up the craziest sayings.. My twitter consists of a Dub type dose of brainology.. (lol) I think so random throughout the day .. My current saying.. Bitches..Biscuits.. Butta.. so your like what does that hav 2 do w/ anything.. it has everything 2 do w/ everything.. here is the flipped side of that saying.. Whips..Bitches..Butta.. i should record myself saying it cause it is truly funny... Today is not a random day but I did hav a convo w/ my fellow co-workers today about pets.. Now i'm not a huge fan of DOGs.. they r cute yes but they jus rub me the wrong way.. i didn't grow up w/ dogs so it's jus not a big thing 4 me.. but all my friends R dog lover's so I am n the wrong when I dnt wanna Luv a Dog.. Hol'up Hol'up Hol'up..we had pet hamsters & last a pet catfish (my co-workers said that is redneck..lol never thought of that)..yup.. as long as the dog isn't trying 2 attack me (it has happened a couple of times) I am cool w/ the animal.. cause that's what it is.. Human's R animals 2..LoL.. & Men R dogs. i look @ my roommates dog sumtimes and think your a dog.. jus like men..haha.. but what R Women? cause Wmn can b dwn right nasty, selfish, conceded (jus like men) & get what they want (not me.lol) It's jus such a debatable subject.. I was watching Joe Budden's Live stream 2day they where hav a heated debate about holler'n @ women.. the difference btwn jus saying hello and being cordial & actually trying 2 Holler' yo girl let me get your number... doesn't happened 2 me alot @ all but my friends experience that.. I'm jus a different diva and should network more but sometimes I feel like i am jus looked @ as a sheltered sugar coated donut vs. vanilla glazed which is delicious & pop's when u see it.. I am told I am beautiful.. but what is that.. i'm not thin... kinda thick but fit..but the average (good looking man) isn't looking @ me they r Looking @ my neighbor that prob has her hair fly, skinner, but on the same dam level as me.. I guess Life comes that way.. U know my friends R like go & talk 2 them dnt wait for them 2 come 2 you.. but i'm like I guess.. I feel like i'm going 2 get rejected so why say anything @ all.. it takes alot for me 2 ask like personal questions if i haven't like hungout w/ you depending on the situation n that Order.. But enough of that.. I'm done ..I think.. I got another post that's more interesting then my inner Thoughts ;) dub

AnYoRder..

2009-05-28T13:19:00.000-07:00

So My Life goes N that order... a day 2 day mash of a daily Recreation Worker/Maui Wowie Recreational user/starving Artist? (not really but hey it's my blog) I'm a picture taking, brie wearing, smoke wit cigarettes (via

Milton),MacBook Lover (not Pro just book), Itunes/music head, Type of diva that does what it dew ... yaye.. so follow me or follow the other blogger... DAILY..